narandra itu too gloomy
pradit itu terlalu menyenangkan. bad boy.

armand itu bad boy yang kalau bad day yaa jadi gloomy #eh

to lovely man,

hello.. how's there?
i just.....miss you. the lost feeling just came right through me and stay there.
and if someday you come to my dream, i just want you to know how much i love you.
how i wished......
i were sit there a little bit longer.
laughed with you a little bit louder.
hugged you a little bit tight(er).
and say i love you as much as i do.

but then, life is never fail to surprise me.
you're gone. and i left.

and as a lovely man, you should have known that many people (and i mean it by A LOT) that came and pray for you.
did you hear us that day?
do you still hear our prays today?

i also wanna say thank you.
like. thank you.
for being a very cool grandpa.
for your smile.
and your smiley face.
and the way you taught me about manner.
and the way you laughed at us.

how it changed me, as a person and your granddaughter, into a mankind.

and still...
i know you've known it better than me.
but i love you.
as much as people loved you.
even more.

have a greatest rest, grandpa.
and some fun, of course. the way you always make some fun.
have a tea time with grandma.

sincerely,

wtih love,

your grandchild :)

yaa Tuhan. sejujurnya. 

aku rindu menulis.

sungguh.

hello.
you.
nara, and the stories and the blog.
hope to see you soon.
really soon.

i'm getting crazy in a real world. like....., really.

mungkin hanya sedang ingin sedikit mendapat sanjungan.
butuh sedikit disemangati.
tapi semua memang benar adanya.
saat kamu jatuh, disaat itu kamu bisa lebih objektif memandang apa yang selama ini ada di dekatmu.
teman omong kosong yang hanya bisa tertawa tanpa saling berbagi, yaa tak lebih dari omong kosong belaka juga.
kesenangan yang dibagi, tawa yang mengumandang.
dan sayangnya, nampak mereka hanya bisa tertawa.
bukti ternyata saat kamu jatuh, mereka tetap tertawa.
selamat. kamu sedang terjebak dalam suatu lingkaran atas nama perkumpulan wanita yaaaaang...
hanya bisa tertawa.
oh dan tentu saja gossip.

have a life!

i know it's a bit late.
but hey there...
happy second anniversary and many years for the friendship :)

such a big thank you for being my very bestfriend for years and my part-time-lover for these 2 years.
people say it is good to have a boyfriend and stay in a healthy relationship for a long time, but it's not the point for me.
for me, having you is more than having a boyfriend. you're waaaaaaaayyy better than that.
you still there, no give up sign, even when i'm at my worst. furthermore, you're really a good listener and a better understand(er).

i don't know what else to say,
just wanna say happy anniversary :*

and big thank you for these years of friend-relation-ship you have offered to me :)

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

just in a blink and it has been 2 years.
well, thank you. i just....don't know what to do or how to survive in this thingy without you.

cause you've been my anesthetic for so long 

note to self

Nurulita Tyas: world has its own way to make it fair, darl
Nurulita Tyas: maybe world just wanna make us understands. about other's life.
Nurulita Tyas: about a scar behind every laugh
Nurulita Tyas: about loneliness behind every (seems) perfect life
Nurulita Tyas: or maybe.... it's just meant to be
Nurulita Tyas: :)

see? it's useless.
better to keep it myself.

when you're down and everyone's cheering for it.
where do you have to go?
not a single place.
not a single man.
not any person at all.

just books. coffee. and blank paper.

when the only thing you can do is the best way to hurt other people you care.
how can somebody telling me that life is better than having no life at all?